Song Lyric Sunday: Chips Ahoy

What is "Song Lyric Sunday", you ask? It is the day where I embrace my inner seventeen year old and discuss how song lyrics that someone else wrote relate to my life. Or have some sort of resonance with me. Whatever, you know you all do it too. You just don't post it on the interwebz for all to read.

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For my first Song Lyric Sunday,I thought I would get the one that makes me sound vaguely full of myself out of the way to start. Now I can do nothing but redeem myself during future weeks. So, without further ado, I give you some lyrics from The Hold Steady's Chips Ahoy:

She's hard on the heart
and she's soft to the touch

The song itself is about drugs and horse gambling and about how tons of money doesn't automatically equal no problems - which are all things I can't relate to. But recently someone told me I had really soft skin and that person was not the first and so those lyrics popped out.

Since I was sixteen-and-a-half, I've barely been single if you really think about it. Two months here and there... I think the longest was probably that three month stint during first year. I'm a serious serial monogamist, I guess, what can I say? It's not so bad.

However, it seems like every time I'm single and ready to move into a new relationship I've got multiple suitors at once. I can think of five seperate times its happened that I've been aware of. When I was younger, to be honest, it was always a case of who got there first. I was so amazed and pleased that someone liked me, I would go with the first guy who made a move. And that served me well, I think. I definitely learned from it. I got a little bit more self-aware as I got older and started to realize who I really did want and held out for them. Awkwardly. I really did deal with it awkwardly. I'm sure I still do. I was in a relationship for a long time, I didn't learn coping skills! Anyway. All of this multiple boy nonsense makes me connect the "hard on the heart" bit to myself. And if that seems self-absorbed... I think it's something I need right now and I'm not going to apologize for it.

Often, one comes out of a relationship certain that no one will ever like them again. Definitely not as much as they were just liked. And they will definitely never like anyone else as much as they liked that one person. It's a sad place to be. This time around, I don't seem to be falling into that place. There's a lot more time in my life and there are a lot more people that I don't know yet.

And on that note? I'm pretty sure those above lyrics actually relate to all girls, some just don't see it. But I'm pretty sure we're all soft to the touch and hard on the heart.